Monday, June 30, 2008


when i was little my brother and i were fighting
i don't remember why we were fighting
it was probably over a toy
or sharing something
he chased me up the stairs
i flattened myself against a pillow on the bed
i pretended to cry
he said, "jillian, it's ok"
and i turned to him quickly
and revealed my hands-
i made the "if you look at this, you're gay" sign with my hands
my right pointer finger was pressed in the middle of my left palm
my brother screamed
he was dumbfounded
he screamed again
we didn't know why, we didn't know what gay is
my best friend is gay
my neighbor is gay
my gay best friend has millions of gay friends
on myspace

one of my friend's little brothers is at the stage now where he calls everything gay
"not gay as in you like a man," he says
"gay as in you're stupid"


jereme said...

i liked this

it was not gay

gay is in stupid

i am unable to determine the typings sexual preference.

it doesn't really matter

Daniel Bailey said...

i've never heard of that hand gesture.

jillian said...

i know, it's ridiculous

it was when i was in like third grade or something

don't feel "left out"

tomhanks said...

i haven't heard of it either

i tried to do it and i think i pressed my finger into my hand too hard, but then i understood

i like your poems a lot